how he loves us so

He is jealous for me
He loves like a hurricane
I am a tree,
bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions - eclipsed by glory.
I realize just how beautiful you are,
and how great your affections are for me

Oh, how he loves us so
Oh, how he loves us
How he loves us so

We are his portion;
and he is our prize -
drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes
If grace is an ocean - we’re all sinking
Then heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
My heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets
when I think about the way he loves us
Oh, how he loves us.


I am in love with this song by The Glorious Unseen, (How He Loves) It melted my heart the first time I heard it at our church...we were having SUCH a terrible time financially and with other things I just felt so broken that morning.   I heard this and it made me think of my Sam and the wild things and how I love Sam so. I realized in that moment, with tears welling-up in my eyes..that we are all Max to God and the world that we live in is full of wild things, and God is holding the good things for us..for when we are ready.   


I tell Sam every moment I can "I love you so...I love you so"  and one day Sam will say it back and it will be one of the happiest moments of my life.  I know it will happen, and because we are having to wait longer than other parents to hear it we will cherish it that much more and we will appreciate ALL of his words that much more.  
You know..on the topic of words..my son has given a new perspective on words for me.  For so long I have felt that words were so much better than being silent. I still have many moments where I feel this way, because I love words and what you can do with them...but Sam has shown me that this is not always so..sometimes you have to be silent and just absorb the world.  Touch things, laugh, jump, dance and think of nothing but how good it feels. To simply enjoy the world without words.  My son is teaching me so much, without saying a single word, and for that good thing I am so, SO grateful.  I look forward to learning what you have to teach me my sweet boy.  You are everything good in this world. I love you so.