Mama Loves You Sam

This morning I buckled Sam in his car seat and talked with him as I always do.."Mama loves you Sam, you love Mama too huh" and then I kiss his little forehead and get in the car to drive to his new school.  I talk to him on the way pointing things out, telling him he's going to have a fun day and see his teacher and his new friends.  He looks out the window and back at me as I talk to him.  I start singing one of his silly Yo Gabba Gabba songs and that always gets a smile.  We pull-up to the school and get in the carpool line and as soon as we stop Sam makes his little sad face and starts crying.  I hate it like any other Mom, because I don't want to see my baby cry.  So I tell him, it's okay baby "Mama loves you Sam, you love Mama too huh" and I scoot my seat back, unbuckle him and hold him.  (We get there about 20 minutes early so that we don't have to sit in the carpool line that gets wrapped around the block.)  I hold him and  he stops crying, pulls my face with his little hands and gives me a kiss.  He has the best little kisses and hugs.  I say "I love you my Sam, you love Mama too huh".  I have imagined his voice in my head saying I love you Mama..I have dreamt of him talking and using REAL words. You see Sam babbles, he says Mama, Dada, Daddy & Odie and a variety of non-purposeful sounds but he has never spoken to me, he has never told me how he is feeling, if thinks something is great or fun, sad or scary... but one day he will.  One day he will interrupt me from saying "you love Mama too huh" and he will say I love you Mama and It will be amazing. So for now... Mama loves you Sam and you love Mama too huh.